speechless.

it has only been a week.

there's so many things to do!

everything suddenly becomes so difficult.
and, some things are weird, and uncomfortable.
i dont know what to do.

feel like washing my hands off everything.
but i just cant.

soo tired.

i wonder.

the eyes tell.
emotions that flicker across the eyes.
in that split second, they portray more than what mere words do.
have you looked into someone's eyes and seen the emotion there?

the eyes betray.
often u realise they do not listen to you.
u tell a lie and it's exposed straightaway.
your eyes gave you away.

many people dont make the effort to see.
and i do not mean in the scientific sense.

if i say i'm happy, and my eyes say so, then i'm happy.
is this the case?
so should we not listen to people, but look at their eyes instead?

this is such a fantasy.

people can lie with their eyes.
some, even have the deep, unknown look in their eyes that makes you unable to tell their true feelings.

what exactly is real, true, and absolutely correct?
simple and straightforward.
thats an easier way of life.






well.
i wonder why am i writing things that do not make sense to me.

hmm.

i have a bad feeling about tmr.

i once said i dont like the feeling of opening my eyes to daybreak.
i prefer waiting for daybreak.
becox in this way, i wont have to face the unknown all of a sudden.
and i was scolded for being foolish.

foolish i can be.
if i know i'll be happier that way, i'll rather be foolish.

but somehow, this time, i feel no matter what i do, the ending will be the same.
it's not an unknown.
it's a fact.

everything will never be the same again.

the same place, the same people. but nothing else remains the same.
including myself.

it will be easier if pple can understand.
but if they dont know anything, they cant understand.
and i have no wish to explain things.

it is affecting me.
to an incredibly large extent.
i cant be who i was again.
i cant bring myself to pretend i am.

maybe i should just let it be.
let people go away, further and further away from me.
that's how it should be, i guess.

i'm back =)

finally...

i realised without the com, life gets dull and boring.
i dont know when have we become so dependent on it.

all thx to bro, who took care of the prob.



school's starting tmr.
feeling...
uneasy.


i dont like definite answers.
but i prefer to have them.
because in this way, things are more straightforward and less complicated.

hmm...

so much emotions.
shocking turn of events.

i must say, the plot and acting are excellent.

*

tired. or rather, lacking of energy.
somehow, like whatever happens, it dosent concern me.
and this feeling of irrelevance, is disturbing.
i dont like it.

feeling---

when nobody believes in you, you feel like some insignificant individual.

it's never going to happen.